My new plan of no longer eating and is very challenging. I was successful yesterday but this morning it was just so boring to sit and do nothing while I ate breakfast. So I planned in advance what I was going to eat and then I just ate that while I watched some TV. I think it still isn’t good though because the point is to get over the habit of multitasking with food.

Last night we went to Korean BBQ and I had some Bipimbop, or however that is spelled. It was delicious. I also had some dumplings. It wasn’t keto friendly, but I’m not upset about it because it wasn’t a blatant cheat, just a minor indiscretion. It’s hard to eat right when travelling so I can’t be too rough on myself or I’ll go a little crazy.

I’ve definitely been struggling with body image issues lately. I’ve just been feeling really fat the past few days, despite being the same weight that I’ve been for quite awhile. You’d think I would have adjusted to my current weight, or even felt good because I weigh 50 pounds less than I used to. It will always be a struggle, I suppose.

For lunch today I had a salad. I sat at the desk in my hotel room to eat my salad. I turned off the tv, turned off my music, and set my phone out of reach. I ate my salad and did absolutely nothing else.

It was hard. Eating is so boring! It felt like it was taking hours to eat my salad. And I had to keep stopping myself from doing other things. First I reached for my phone so I could log what I was eating on myfitnesspal. I stopped myself. Then I started reading the back of the salad packaging and again I stopped myself. It is incredibly difficult to just eat.

When I got back from the San Francisco regional office I sat on my bed to eat dinner, again with all electronic devices turned off. Again, it was boring. I found it a little more peaceful this time though. Less rushed than before. I just sat and ate and thought about my day. I had laid out my food in front of me, carefully measured to stay within my carbohydrate and calorie counts for the day. I patiently ate my cheese and then my almonds. It was nice.

The almonds were particularly tasty and I still have quite a few left in the bag. But the urge to eat them while watching The Walking Dead wasn’t there because eating and isn’t an option. I did drink some decaf though.

I am proud of myself for sticking to my plan. I’m not hungry, and I feel good about my success for the day.

On a side note, I find it very challenging to get enough fat in this diet. Well, enough fat without getting too much protein. The meats and cheeses I eat all contain so much protein. The only strictly fat item that I have is the heavy cream I put in my coffee. Trying to eat 65% fat, 30% protein, and 5% carbs is proving quite tricky. Today my macros came out to 61/33/6. Not great but close.

Yesterday I arrived in San Francisco for work. I immediately went to the Safeway a few blocks from the hotel and stocked up on keto friendly items. I got deli meat, cheese, some bacon bits, some prepackaged salads, and some almonds. I even got some heavy cream for my coffee and some chicken broth. It really helps when there is a fridge in the hotel room.

I was all set and I stayed on track until about 7PM. Then, as I sat watching The Walking Dead on my laptop, I got the urge to munch. And the hotel was ever so kind to provide a stocked minibar with all kinds of snacks at exorbitant prices. I had been in ketosis for 8 straight days and it had been a struggle to get into ketosis before that. And yet I caved.

I ate pretzels (they weren’t very good), a Snickers bar (I’m not that crazy about Snickers), Sea Salt Kettle Chips (okay, those were pretty tasty), and some dipped chocolate sticks of some sort (also good). I regret it. Very much. It wasn’t worth it but my will power just wasn’t that strong.

My biggest issue is eating while watching TV. Honestly, I’m not that interested in food otherwise. If I have to sit at the table without a TV or something to do (read, etc) then I find eating very boring. But when it’s combined with something else, I love it.

I’ve known this for awhile. It’s a very hard habit to break, this eating and watching. My determination is back full force today, though. I am, once again, sick of this struggle and even more determined to battle it out.

There is one rule I need to make that I must follow from here on out. No more eating and. I don’t care what follows the “and”, be it reading, watching TV, or working. Just no more. When it is time to eat I will eat and focus solely on eating. And then, when that 10 minutes is over (eating never takes very long) I can resume whatever activity I would like.

This is a good plan. I can do this.